If only I were a song...

"Stories wait for endings while songs are bold things brave enough to sing when all they know is darkness" - Jamie Tworkowski

These words cannot be more true.

I don't like he typical "this is who I am" first post when I begin a blog... But a little insight as to why I created this blog; I'm a girl, I'm depressed, I want to make my life better, I want to be happy.
This is my way of working towards that goal.

A little about me:
I'm a 20 year old Native American college student who wants to change the world.
I love music, I love my family, I have the most amazing man in my life, and I am extremely blessed.

However, it has been a very tough year for me and my family; we have lost a few people who are near and dear to us and on top of that, starting college, working, and trying to make a relationship more than just work in this day and time I have become a little depressed... But, I am trying to work against this.

One of the people that I have lost this year was my Papa, John. He was a good man. Crazy as can be, but that is why we love him (Yes. I do not speak in passed tense, because I do still love him just the same)...
 Papa always told me the same thing "You're an old soul" and most importantly, "a nation is only as strong as the backbone of it's women"

Tonight after having a near breakdown because of above said stress, I remember the latter and it made me take a deep breath and realize; I am a strong woman and I deserve to be happy.

So, as Papa would so wholeheartedly say; It's time to kick ass and take names.

This is a outlet for me. I don' expect people to read it or respond to it but it is what it is.

- B <3

Song of the day: "Stand" by Rascal Flatts